my own oasis
friends, i’m tired. how i wish i could curl up like a cat and nap the day away. it’s been a long time since i had such a luxury!
i used to live in a little, old house with big rooms. there was a wonderful tree in the front yard. it was over a hundred years old, the biggest tree on the block. i loved to look out the window at the big old tree. the western sunlight would glitter off the leaves and the breeze in the branches made a sweet rustling sound.
the house was a shrine to comfort and beauty. it was an oasis and a retreat for me and me alone. i hardly ever had visitors. i didn’t know the neighbors…didn’t want to. my bedroom was in the front and i used to rest in bed with a pile of books and that shimmering tree out front. i felt safe under the canopy of that great beauty.
i would get sleepy from reading and drift off. it was a lovely time in my life. the absolute quiet and the delicious freedom of being bound to no one now seems incredibly seductive. of course at the time i remember being lonely and concerned that the future was stretching out before me with no surprises in store.
things changed when my future husband moved in.
he is a friendly guy and quickly met everyone on the block. my anonymity was slipping away and i gladly gave it over. i didn’t want to be alone anymore. the naps fell by the wayside as our different schedules meshed and we started creating a life together.
i miss that sleepy little house. i miss the fantastic tree. i miss my soft bed, covered with books and the western sun casting shadows across the floor.
still, i wouldn’t trade it for what i have now.
a life bustling with noise and intensity, little children who smell like sugar cookies.
the messes, great and small generated by the torrential energy of the little ones.
shrieks and screams and conflicts galore.
still, a day in my old oasis would be wonderful. i could use a little rest.
cheaplikeme said,
February 11, 2008 at 12:11 pm
Send ‘em away! Can’t they visit someone without you? And force yourself to stay in bed …
fallenwoman said,
February 11, 2008 at 1:27 pm
i know, i know…
i should stay in bed…but when they’re gone i like to clean. can’t stand a messy house.
soon i will be in bed from sheer collapse.
Liara Covert said,
February 11, 2008 at 10:08 pm
You can do anything you choose to set your mind to do. I love the images you choose for blog posts. Why not decide to simply enter them at the level of your soul? Your mind is the only thing that stands between you and this dream.
francoyong said,
February 13, 2008 at 9:44 pm
Hi..I love your blog!! So beautiful, pretty and filled with lots of good reading. I’ll certainly be back.
Thanks for letting me into your space.
Regards,
Franco
Donna said,
February 14, 2008 at 9:45 am
Hello! Just driving by and thought I’d stop in…really like the post! Have fun today!!
fallenwoman said,
February 16, 2008 at 12:18 pm
thanks for the validation…it’s good to know there’s something to enjoy here!